Prayer during Loss

Losing someone significant to me has been one of the greatest challenges throughout my life.  When I lost my sister, I spent most of the months following her passing thinking about how difficult the loss was to everyone else.  I masked my grief with thinking about how her husband and my other family members felt.  When the snowball finally hit the bottom of the cliff, I realized that I did not have a mechanism in place for dealing with my own sorrow. I prayed for strength.  I know God's Plan is powerful and everything that happens has meaning.  I also know that He would not give me more than I could bear. 

Prayer is like a bridge...it connects things.

One consistency throughout my life is my need/determination to pray.  I consider myself a mature Christian, but I am not perfect.  When tough times come my way, I tend to feel a little offbalance.  Throughout many sleepless nights, I prayed for understanding.  Here is what was revealed to me.
Faith is believing what you cannot see.  In my search for understanding, I found that I was to pray for God to reveal the next step of my journey, not for Him to show me the "why".  You see, in all of my searching for answers to resolve my pain, I failed to remember that God had already written this path into my life.  Although I did not like the path that led to having to endure such great loss, it was to be.
Today I pray for God to reveal what is to come when it is time for it to come. Everything that happens is leading me closer to understanding what His True Plan is for my life. Faith, in fact, is knowing that God is with you every step of the way.  He is in every joy and every tear.   He surrounds you like the wind.  He is the air that flows in and out.   He is my Creator, the fuel of my Strength.  Thus, I will always look to the hills and pray.